I feel as though my whole life has been a pointless waste of time. I have had numerous opportunities in life but have never done anything or progressed due to lack of confidence. I had a rubbish childhood & at 30 it is still holding me back, which in itself just proves what a waste of space I am. I have a great well-paid job despite no education, a lovely husband & a gorgeous baby but I just want my life to end. I dislike myself to the point where I can't take it anymore. I want my husband to meet someone who can give my daughter a great life, and not a mother who cries all the time or harms herself. We are both in the Army & don't live near family or close friends, that doesn't bother me just the thought of my daughter being on her own when I do decide to take the plunge. I love her with all my heart but she deserves better, i'm not good enough for her or my husband.