Well I was on medication till the end of last year it made me feel more suicidal which led me to cutting to much. When I got off my meds my parents were so proud of me as they always frowned upon the idea of needing meds to me being able to function properly. I have been struggling even more since I got off the meds with constant mood swings which have been making me feel like I am going insane and just feeling so low and anxious most of the time. I had to tell them that I wanted to see someone about my problems again and get put back on meds which was a very hard thing to do having to look at your parents and tell them that you are still wanting to kill yourself. Apparently I had got a letter from a therapist office last week asking if I wanted to see the therapist again but my parents hid it from me that alone made me very angry as I have been thinking about seeing someone again for a while. I filled out the letter listing my symptoms so they know what kind of treatment I need and hopefully I should see someone by the end of next month. I really hope getting put on meds will help they did not before because I think my GP misdiagnosed me and did not give me anything for my mood swings which I have been told is just Bipolar disorder. I just really want this stop I just want to be happy again. I hope the meds make me feel normal so I can just live my life.