So, I'm a half-breed, more 1/4 breed. My pops is Japo-Cuban, moms Serb-Dutch. I'm a god-damned mutt. I take a girl out, she's chinese, 100%. I had to meet her father, being so much older I felt weird (she's 19 I'm 25). It was expected, the difference in age. I've never experienced that. (I've only been this old for a little while.) The date went well, we had a good time. She said she'd like to go out with me again, we kissed. I left. My family, not my father, but my aunts and uncles, ridicule me for not looking for a good cuban (the jap side doesn't speak to me). The Serb-dutch side is all dead, my mom wants me to find "some good girl." I know what they said about my father though. I know what people say about me and my brother. "We're the 'good ones'." I hear "We werent' talking about you." "What are you?" These statements and questions, fucking crush you. If you don't deal with them, I don't know if can feel them. Sometimes I play games with my brother and pops with replying only in spanish. Then, I hear about people who are arrested for being "Hispanic" and need to prove their citizenship. I want kids that never have to hear this shit. Never have to deal with it. I don't family that tells my wife "at least he's one of the good ones." I don't want family that whispers to MY brother "at least she's honest." I am Hispanic, Cuban, I am Japanese, and I'm dutch and Serbian. Don't tell me I'm not fucking american too, you know nothing about me or my family. Nothing happened, we had a great time. I just think too much,.