I don't know where to turn to. I have been getting very suicidal thoughts, and have started to mildly act them out. Today was pretty serious - I went down and watched a movie in the garage<mod edit- methods>on purpose. I feel asleep after a while, and then woke up feeling a little unwell. I read afterwards that this doesn't work at all anymore. Oops. Anyway, I'm really upset and shocked that I am going to these lengths, but equally upset that it didn't work. Previously, I tried to force myself to stay asleep for a couple of days using prescription pills for that purpose. The trigger for this was a bad therapy session on Tuesday that really threw me off the rails. Apologies if this needs any edits. I feel really trapped.