Today is just one of those days nothing goes right. I had a great night planned, I was supposed to go carve a pumpkin with my fiance, but that got cancelled. Then as a backup one of my friends invited me out for a drink, then cancelled after I had done my (Halloween) makeup. Not many things get me down more than disappointments. Halloween is one of my favourite holidays and all I did tonight was waste my time doing makeup to be cancelled on twice, alone. It's days like this that my depression really takes hold and I get so low. I wish I would just give up so I can not have to re-live nights with feelings like this. I don't necessarily feel like ending my life tonight, I just can't help but sit here and think about how much more of this depression and suicidal feelings I can take before I snap.