I guess I just post here because I have no one to tell in person who cares to hear it. On Monday I'll be calling the apartment to see where I'm at on the list. I was #11 at the beginning of last month and it's a fairly large complex. If they say I'm number 4 or 5 I will be content and even a little excited. If they say I'm number 10 and I moved 1 spot in a month I will be devastated. I have nowhere to live as of July 1st and have had absolutely zero luck on Craigslist and even a local Facebook roommate searching thing. I have about $1500 right now to throw down for the new apartment and I've worked hard to save this much. I can't afford to just rent any apartment since most are $800-1000 a month. The one I've been on the list for is for disabled people and is much cheaper. I feel like I should just make a deal with myself and if they say I'm still number 9 or higher I'll just kill myself but if it's lower I'll wait it out. I'm not going to live in a homeless shelter or in my car for 3+ months, not a chance in hell. I'll be dead before it gets that far. Has anyone else here felt like they needed to make ultimatums like this?