I'm having a hard time hanging in here. The past year has just become too much to handle. I don't know if I'm suicidal, but I can't stop thinking about it. It all started when I started a company way too young, with a large sum of money the bank should never have given me. I'm now 29, struggling with a failing entertainment company, so in debt that most days I need to ask my fiance for lunch money and bus fare to get to my second job. And that was the status quo. Two months ago, my fiance and my sister got into a major argument. My sister is a little psychotic and she created an incident that was completely unfair to my fiance. My sister has a history of dishonesty, theft and manipulation, and yet, my parents decided to side with her without even asking to hear my fiance's side of the story. The whole thing culminated in my being more of less disowned by my family. Shortly thereafter, my mother was diagnosed with cancer. Then my dog started attacking people, including me (on the face, had to have my lip stitched back on). On Tuesday of last week, I was laid off from my second job, the one I was using to keep my head above water. If all else was equal, I wuold probably be ok, but now my fiance has told me over the weekend that she just can't take anymore, and is moving out, then going to Thailand for an extended period of time. I think she needs some space, but I don't understand why she is moving out right before going. On top of that, I won't be able to pay rent in January, and eviction is likely. My car is being repossessed, and the killer for the company thing is that I'm in the entertainment business, and a writer, so when the bank comes collecting, they're going to take the copyrights from my life's work. So basically, I'm losing: 1) my fiance 2) my home 3) my company 4) got laid off from my second job 5) my dog needs to be put down 6) My mother has cancer 7) My family has disowned me 8) My life's work Can anyone put this into perspective for me?