hanging on by a thread

tks to everyone and one special person xxxxxxxx
i made it through a night but no sleep again
made it through the morning but now is where
it is getting hard again.
i don't want to be trouble to anyone
i don't want to be a burden to anyone
long weekend, everyone is gone away
its like i went from barely managing to falling
into the dark hole again
where there is nothing
where the urge to leave this life gets stronger
by the hour
where a tiny part of me is reaching out
but most of me already feels dead.
hard to describe
wouldn't take much to end it now.