Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Ruby, Mar 23, 2008.

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  1. Ruby

    Ruby Well-Known Member

    I don't think that I can take much more. I hate my life and all the shit that it brings. My brother has been drinking heavily all day and causes trouble within the house hold. He has been drinking since early afternoon and all he does it cause trouble. I can't cope with it anymore. He's never really cared about me, other than when I was in intensive care after an overdose I took. I just can't take the stress anymore. He stresses my parents, he stresses me, he stresses my sister but luckily for her she doesn't live at home anymore. Earlier on he called me lazy, he seems to take all his anger out of me, even when he's arguing with my mother. I just can't take it anymore. He can barely stand now. I feel like crying. He brings my mother so much stress. Earlier on I decided that i'd hang myself when everyone goes to bed. I've gone as far as writing a note and getting some rope. I just don't feel like I can do this for much longer. :cry:
  2. Ruby

    Ruby Well-Known Member

    I wish that I was in hospital. What can I do to go? I openly admit to wanting to kill myself. I almost did so with an overdose and they still sent me home. If attempting suicide doesnt get me admitted then what will? maybe secretly people want me to die.. nobody does anything to help me. I tell the nurse every week that I have plans to kill myself and yet she does nothing. I think its my only option now. theres no other choice.
  3. dazzle11215

    dazzle11215 Staff Alumni

    there is a choice... don't give up now.
    please call the suicide hotline
    most places prefer outpatient support, that's what i'm getting, as beds are in short supply but an emergency is an emergency. you *can* go to the ER and ask for help. please do that? don't hang yourself. your brother sounds like a real jerk. dont' let him win, keep fighting.
  4. Blue danube

    Blue danube Member

    Please dont go .....you seem on the level, dont let him ruin ur life and your parents . Your brother needs help. I had a brother like yours, he loves you really but he'll never show it. I dont know why they are like that but i still miss mine, i never got to talk one last time with my bro over an argument, he was maybe ashamed of me but i love him always. You musn't let this end your life, its not your time yet.
  5. Bellabie

    Bellabie Member

    Please, friend, do not resort to such.
    If not for yourself, realize that your brother must already be upset.
    This will not solve things, love.
    If you must remove yourself from the scenario, do so.
    This is not worth removing yourself from life, though.
    We love you.
    You can be strong.
    I believe in you.
  6. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    Ruby, just go to a different hospital and tell them how you're feeling, they can't just send you home. Best wishes. xx
  7. TheWr0ngChild

    TheWr0ngChild Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry you get such a draconian response from the hospital, like someone else said, try another hospital because the sad fact about the NHS is some hospitals alloted more funding for mental health than others. You sound very clear and I understand 100% how you feel. If you get help, then you and your mum and anyone else involved has got to get help for your brother too, you must explain that it is seeing him in this way that is having this effect on you. Please don't kill yourself Ruby.
  8. Ruby

    Ruby Well-Known Member

    Thanks for the all the replies :hug:

    I ended up calling a friend late last night and she ended up talking me through the immediate crisis. As for my brother, he eventually returned home so drunk that he was hallucinating. My mother and I escorted him to bed and he slept right through the night. He woke up today terribly hangover and has assured us that he won't be drinking again. Hmm, not conviced.
  9. Right U R Ken

    Right U R Ken Well-Known Member

    Sadly you're not convinced for good reason. His soberity will only last as long as his hangover. Typical act of a lot of alcoholics. Not sure why they do that but they seem to do it constantly. I had a cousin that gave up drinking every Sunday morning(yes he actually said , "guess what? I quit drinking") and, of course, was back to drinking by that next weekend or sooner, every single time.

    I'm sorry to say your brother will be drinking and causing trouble again very soon. Unless he's literally forced into treatment it's not likely he'll be able to quit on his own.
  10. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    I am glad you made it through the immediate crisis Ruby. It is good you have a supportive friend you trust enough to turn to. I hope you are feeling better today. please stay safe and take care. :hug:
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