I just want to thank those who tried to convince me to stay here in this life. After careful thought and planning I am now ready to move on and be side by side with God. There is no hope in trying to tell me there is a better alternative then this miserable life I am in. There is a painter Hieronymus Bosch that depicted in his painting life here on earth is Hell. There is not much known about him, but if you research his painting you will understand. With that being said, Good Luck to everyone here on this forum and please keep up the great work in saving lives.