I saw a rainbow today, a beautiful one, and it wanted to cry, for the end landed (from my angle) on my horse's rump. When i am with her i feel so happy, shes my best friend, my favorite secret keeper, my craziest playbuddy, and my most empathetic counsiler. Shes everything to me, and when i am with her i feel like i want to melt of happiness. But i only get to see her once a week. Now im back home, to face another week of torture, the reason to endure? to see her again. Why is my happiness as constant as the rainbow, ending in my own personal pot of gold? why cant i find that happiness, that joy somewhere else when i cannot be with her? i cannot see her any more often, im already pusing it hard to see her once a week. i feel so lost, and i dont understand why i lose the happiness as soon as i leave her behind, shes my angle, and she has every ounce of happiness that has come to me. i dont know how to find any other joy, and its to the point where in the middle of the week, or late at night i just want to end it all, for there is not a reason to go on, when i cannot see to the end of the week. i wish i could find a more constant, i need a more constant, though my lovely dancer is my shining starts, i need a sun or moon to get help from, when the stars are covered in clouds :blub: