I've set my end for late July, this year. If by some magical stroke of fate my life turns around I'll carry on, but I doubt it will happen. For some reason knowing that I have 5 months of this to live through gives me a certain joy. I've been reading a lot about the universe, time, the cosmos, etc, in what I suppose must be some sort of way of preparing for the annihilation of my Ego and my return to the Void/Tao/Brahman/God whatever you want to call it. Anyways, just what I've been feeling lately.