tl;dr: Can you be happy and still want to kill yourself? Suicide and suicidal thoughts are often associated with depression, adversity and pain. But what if that isn't the case? I find myself in a very unusual situation, based on the numerous forum posts I've read. I'm pretty sure I'm suicidal. But my life is also in a very agreeable place. I have a home, a family and a degree in the making. Yet I feel like killing myself. Literally. I've "tried" to kill myslelf once, but that was nothing but a half-assed cry for attention. This time, I find myself looking at ways to expire quietly, without anyone suspecting suicide. I've never really liked living, even though life has had a way of working out for me. So why am I here, posting my thoughts? I want to answer two things: Firstly, I'd like to know if anyone else has ever felt the same way. Secondly, I'd like an outsider's perspective: can everything really be OK, if I want to die?