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Yep. I've been in a really good mood since I moved out of my old place (which may have been a very big contributor to my depression) but I'm on edge all day just waiting for it to come crashing down again. Being sad and lonely is easier to deal with because I'm used to it, being happy and talkative is unfamiliar now.
Sometimes I feel the only people who understand me are the people at this site (none of whom I have ever met). I know exactly how it feels to be happy while at the same time on edge b/c you think its not going to last. A couple of weeks ago I was having a great day and then WHAM! I brought myself out of it by thinking, "Whoa. Don't get too happy. The other proverbial shoe is going to drop any moment and something bad is going to happen so just reel in the happiness and seal yourself off in preparation for the fall." They say its a defense mechanism but its no less frustrating for those of us who have to deal w/ it. I honestly don't remember what unbridled happiness even feels like anymore.
i agree with everything, you peeps here keep me breathing when those in my rl make me want to scream and end it there and then. maybe its cos we can be more honest behind a wall and that gives us time, who knows but i am glad i found this place where i can be honest and not be judged and hope i can give the support i have found even if i succumb to my callings
we all have a path to follow and we dont always know what it is but in my good moments i would say...breathe! the world needs you:zombie: