Howdy All, I notice something when I'm having suicidal thinking - I actually setup a date in my head and work out all the details - like I've done for august 16th of this year, I'm not going to put down the method (in case anyone knows me and tries to stop it). I was wondering if it's typical to have all this planning down before doing the deed. It'll stop a lot of grief and misery my family is going through - they've had to deal with my depression for the past 24 years - I figure if I can liberate them I'll be doing them a favor (we've gotten past the whole if you commit suicide I'll be sad phase) - they'll see it as a relief if anything. Just hope no one stops me - thought I'd post 'cause people start to wonder when you stop communicating after a particular date. Already told my counselor that I planned for a day after the date I'm really planning - she won't stop me though - which is kinda funny when I think about it. Recently I've been laughing and crying for no reason whatsoever - I used to feel hopeless and trapped, now that I have a plan I feel very liberated and free but still sad.