Sometimes when I'm listening to music and I listen to a happy song, I get very sad. I feel lonely and unloved, and often my eyes will start to tear up. It's just a blatant reminder of how empty my life feels. I also get the same effect when I'm around my friend and his girlfriend. I think, man he's so lucky, she's just about the nicest girl in the world and very pretty. It makes me feel so down on myself knowing that I'll never have a girlfriend. A few times I've slept at night and had vivid dreams where I fell in love. When I wake up in the morning and realize that I was dreaming and what I was feeling wasn't real, I just cry. I'm so desperate, it's disgusting. Why would any woman ever want me? I'm a creep. Sad songs make me sad as well by the way. I'm going to go listen to some radiohead.