Well happy v day to those that care, I unfortunately am not one of those people. Today marks the one year anniversary of my decline, that's right I started sinking on this day last year and every minute of it haunts me. Everything seems to be magnified today, especially the fact that I no longer have that special someone anymore to share it with. She was beautiful in so many ways from being smart and intelligent to extremely caring, yet now I can only imagine the great times she's having today with someone else, and it kills me inside. Everyone I know is enjoying this day with there significant other as I sit alone and scared that I might actually do what I've been contemplating for so long. I was a really great person at one point but i have strayed very far from the pact, and just can't seem to find my way back. I'm constantly looking for tracks or a sign to put me in the right direction to no avail. So it's off to the psyc I go, to share my thoughts as they wait for me to finish so they can go back to enjoying there day. I hope everyone is having a good day today......at least better then mine.