Dont understand how I've been somewhat ok for about 3 days now,but have this ever present feeling of uneasiness or of being unnerved. It feels so strange not having suicidal thoughts after having them 24/7 for about 3 months now. And I know I'm dreading when this passes. It always does. Why can't I just enjoy this place I'm at now? Wish I had someone to help me hold on to it. Don't know how to do it on my own. Who knew that being happy was such hard work?