Hi, This isn't really about mental illness but I hope the subject will be welcome here. Actually on second thought it's quite pathetic, it's just the internet but I've really had enough of it. I'm a member of a country-based forum primarily born from a gaming community and it's one of the places that I have participated in over the years for a lot of things. There are a lot of discussions there that I enjoy taking part in and/or reading. I can't work, online gaming is a way that I pass time and I do enjoy it, have since I was a kid. So it's nice to talk to people and discuss things concerning that, etc. Well, the point I'm making is that I want to keep being there and I enjoy being there, so I'm trying to avoid just leaving. It started 2-3 years ago when I was asking for advice in the general / off-topic forum about installing a TV aerial on my roof for digital TV reception and someone contacted me on MSN and told me that I should install it myself. I did not have the tools or the experience and I found his advice inadequate and potentially dangerous and even a bit scary to think about doing, I'm scared of heights. I refused to take his advice and I explained it while trying to be nice about it but there was no way to say "that's a stupid idea and I wont do it" and he's held a grudge for 2-3 years. Every time I post something to make a point, to help someone with advice, god forbid I vent about something, share an opinion... anything... he will do everything in his power to discredit what I say and insult and degrade me while maintaining his own integrity, so every time I look like I'm a bad person when I respond, and I'm hot headed enough that I just can't help responding every darn time. I always look like I'm the bad person and I've simply had enough! I wont let it happen any more. It's not just him. Another person has been at it a couple of months longer and I don't even know his reason. He's just a bad person. I've never said anything rude, insulting, provocative until one of these people upset me and I react badly. I have mental illness and I can not deal with people or cope with them - that and as I said I'm quite hot headed. I don't know how to deal with the situation. Just today I made a post on a forum related to the game I'm playing at the moment about a health issue in the game and people did nothing but post stupid comments trying to contradict me - And it's all based on fact based on my education in a field that I'm experienced in and I know what I'm talking about. And I didn't care, a few people responded saying I'm right through all the little children who must play the game also. So that was fine, didn't bother me, and then on the gaming forum I'm being harassed on someone posted my thread on an anonymous account trying to make a joke out of me for no good reason when my points are all entirely valid. The last straw for me was a thread I made as a suggestion to improve the game servers run by the same people who own the forum and this person started posting rubbish in it and his friends all decided to join in with nothing but insults and rude remarks. And this person is now a forum moderator saying he should ban me if I continue... continue what, defending myself from his harassment??? And well... I PM'd an administrator but I don't trust him, but what else can I do? In fact I don't even trust him not to just make my message public and laugh at it. I have thoughts of going to court over this because I'm completely finished with letting people affect me like this. I don't want to leave, I don't want to be forced out and I wont let bad people win, EVER. Internet harassment is against the law in my country (and most, I believe, if not in the UDHR)... And I want them to pay for being bad people. Anonymity isn't a license to treat people like shit and make them feel like shit. It's not even just about them any more, it's about all the people who bullied me throughout my life and I just let them, and they continued knowing I'd let them, it's about time to say "no more". Well thanks for listening to my rambling, I'm really upset about this - it's gone on for years and I'm at a loss.