hi. I've never really done anything like this, posted personal stuff on a website, so bear with me. I;m having a really hard time this weekend. I'm thinking about doing something to myself, and I kind of really just want to do something that will 'work', but my counselor says maybe I should go to hospital. its pretty difficult right now because I've decided to go down on meds, but I'm kinda having some bad side effects. I hate it, because I told myself this time I wasn't going to fool around with some half hearted attempt again, but I am still kind of unsure and scared. I am such a coward. has anybody else felt that way. I need to prove to myself and others that I am not a coward.