Dont say alcoholic but I cant help it, meds wont help and my doctor has stopped calling me, peoples are mean, bills to pay(no money), no job/occupation, last call from 'friend's was weeks ago, my family "the unknowns", I dont want to have this misery, I want a life, what is that? I never been NORMAL, please tell me how to be NORMAL I can act like everbody else and no one can call me weird motherfuck ****