Hey guys, I had a very difficult week, wrapping stuff up with my ex wife - going through my regrets and all the struggles we've been through with my addictions and everything else.. Having a lot of regrets over the fialure of our relationship. Still very much in love with this woman, but she's moved on and I want her to find someone better than me (she truly deserves it) so I am not fighting anymore.. Been in a dark place for a few days. How do you guys deal with past addictions, and preventing relapses? Struggling with it right now. I still drink socially but I went right overboard the other night (I used the socal drinking excuse to try and console myself about it but it wasn't that.. it was the alcoholism coming back), and I am worried. The bottle is looking more and more beautiful all the time. I pride myself on over comming the addictions but I guess we really never overcome, we just handle it... All the methods I was using to keep it all in check are not working any more and I don't know what to do... I am fairly objective when I am sober, but my mind runs wild when I have been drinking and I have been in such a dark place, I really shouldn't be drunk. I thought I was past everything... Thanks for listening..