Update
Well things have started to look up quite a bit. Not 100% out of the woods yet, but doing and feeling much better.

) I took everyone's advice and spoke to someone at my college. Didn't go into the counseling office. I had a very long and in depth discussion with one of my professors. I felt bad at first because we were talking about something completely different, and I kinda broke down on him. :/ It was really hard to talk for a few minutes due to the wave of tears ((He is deaf and I can't hardly use spoken English when I cry, let alone Sign language!)) but to his credit he didn't just turn and leave. He stayed and spoke with me for a while. I had to explain to him why I have been slacking off and not showing up to his class the last month or so. I felt really bad because he would email me every time I missed class and I ignored them....
Anyway! A lot of how I am feeling is easy for him to relate to. I feel helpless and feel as if no one in the world gives two craps about what I say. I tal but no one listens. He can literally relate to it because he didn't learn ASL until he was 15. His parents sent him to a Oralist school, where the students just mimicked the teachers mouth movements. He had no real communication until 15...
I ramble. Moral of the post is things are looking up, and I wanted to thank everyone here for listening and giving me a voice. I hope I can return the favor to you all

) **HUGS!**