I just feel really 'weird' at the moment. Like i am frozen, i feel as if i am just sat watching my life go by and getting more messed up each day and i just sit here day after day in my room doing crap all to stop it.
I would like to sort it out but i cant it's out of my power, everyone else runs my life and does what they want even though they pretend its for me but it's just to make them feel better.
I need some big change to happen, and i am trying to tell myself some miricale will happen and change my life, i know it wont but i really feel that's what i am hanging onto. It's to scary to admit to myself that it wont because then i will have nothing left.
It's like when life is shit, it's really shit.
I am so confused about everything it's overwealming.
I know it's probably sounds really confusing i just needed to get it out because i cannot talk to my family or the people who are meant to be helping me it is getting me no where.
But has anyone else felt like this or this 'weird'?
I would like to sort it out but i cant it's out of my power, everyone else runs my life and does what they want even though they pretend its for me but it's just to make them feel better.
I need some big change to happen, and i am trying to tell myself some miricale will happen and change my life, i know it wont but i really feel that's what i am hanging onto. It's to scary to admit to myself that it wont because then i will have nothing left.
It's like when life is shit, it's really shit.
I am so confused about everything it's overwealming.
I know it's probably sounds really confusing i just needed to get it out because i cannot talk to my family or the people who are meant to be helping me it is getting me no where.
But has anyone else felt like this or this 'weird'?