I want to know your experiences with recovery. At this point, I don't know if it's possible. I'm bulimic, it's entirely life consuming, and there seems to be no end in sight. I've half-heartedly tried to recover a few times, but it always leads to relapse. I guess because I am afraid of gaining weight, but I know that it's really about the "control" and coping mechanism. It's also hard to find motivation to recover when you're deep in depression like I am. It seems futile, especially if I'm going to die anyways. Part of me hopes that it will kill me. I have a feeling that I'd be a lot better off if I could get this under control. It seems like such a simple concept to eat when you're hungry, stop when you're full, and not throw up after eating, but it's honestly so difficult. :sad: Hmph.