Friends Do I have any? Does anyone have any? They stab you when you not looking They sleep with your woman What is the use? Perpetually lonely Can’t stand people If I met you on the street Would you remember my name? NO Are you my friend? Didn’t think so Didn’t expect it to be so Can you love me? Can you like me? NO I don’t like myself Two faced, Three faced Nobody sees the real you Nobody sees the real me Closed off from the rest of the world Who needs the heartache or headache? More people in your life More stress in your life Less feeling in your life Why live then Friends don’t care Don’t have any Don’t want any None want me I am like a poison running rampant in the body of Society. Society that is a joke as well Civilized, yeah right A bunch of animals ruled by there emotions Or lack of Looking for one more thing to purchase, take, or throw away Animals in cages of rules A zoo built in our minds Mental bars trying to hold in the impulses that can’t be caged Our society is built on lies Muhammad, God, Jehovah, Buddha All looking at us Scrutinizing us Ready to slap us like a misbehaving child if we step out of line Are any of them really there? Just another set of bars holding the zoo together Do it Pull the trigger, cut too deep, pop the pills, step in front of the bus Release yourself from you cage Flip off the zoo keepers and free yourself Yet Im stuck in the cage Looking out at the passing tourist Unable to free myself And wanting nothing more then to run free again. I hate the holidays. Always have. Im wrong according to the rules. Supposed to be happy. Im not. Supposed to have fun. I don't. cant remember the last time I have been happy. Been dealing with deppression for about 16 years. What is it to be happy. I dont remember. No joy from babies anymore, no joy from puppies, no joy. How can I get in the Holiday spirit, when my spirit is son empty. Hate life, hate my job, hate the world in general. But that is not true either. To hate something means you care about it in some since. I don't. Beige, everything is Beige. My life is like walking through a haze of grey. Please make it end. Please.