hate it...

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by eih, Nov 15, 2006.

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  1. eih

    eih Well-Known Member

    damn I was off cutting for a whole week... a whole week and one day... but... today I was alone. I found a really sharp knife... made really deep cuts..... got blood all over my jeans

    ... is it freakin possible to stop? I was sure I was over it.. but now look at me...
     
  2. Will

    Will Staff Alumni

    I'm sorry you had to feel that pain...

    Was there a reason? Or was it just that being alone? You cut your wrists?
     
  3. eih

    eih Well-Known Member

    there's alot of reasons :/ like my mum has been really forcing her religeon on me lately and its really irritating... and school friends have been acting strangliy... but I think I do it b/c its a habit... I dunno. I usually dont cut my wrists but I cut my leg..
     
  4. Will

    Will Staff Alumni

    I'm sorry. i know how it sucks to have religion pushed on you, because you should have the freedom to choose. We can talk about it anytime, you can PM me or add me to MSN or Yahoo, my addresses are in my signature.

    Hope you're okay...
     
  5. eih

    eih Well-Known Member

    thanks for caring Xibyll..
     
  6. Will

    Will Staff Alumni

    You're okay now, right?

    How are the cuts? Are they infected?
     
  7. eih

    eih Well-Known Member

    Right now I got the cuts under control.. uhm they stopped bleeding... and the knife I used wasnt to clean:huh: so... it might become infected later I dont know
     
  8. Will

    Will Staff Alumni

    I see...

    How are you emotionally? Everything okay?
     
  9. total_edge

    total_edge Guest

    i can totally relate with you, i did cut after weeks of not cutting
    and i have only one thing to say...forget it! its past , go on and dont
    SH for more than 1 week :smile: , dont forget , we are human , we do
    mistakes.

    how are the scars? better?
    if they got infected , put some betadine on them they will get better
    after a couple of days
     
  10. eih

    eih Well-Known Member

    thanks both of you :sad: but I'm a complete emotional wreck at the moment
     
  11. wienerman

    wienerman Guest

    i understand how you feel, i had gone a while 2 weeks i think, but something triggered me and bam, i was cutting again. :(

    :hug::hug::hug: i hope things get better for you soon
     
  12. eih

    eih Well-Known Member

    thank u : )
     
  13. worthless78

    worthless78 Member

    ....tell me about it....
    life is such a pain in the ass most of the time...

    even when i cut the hell out of my arm my roomates dont see...or dont say anything...
    for several weeks i have 30-ish cuts on my hand. nobody said shit.


    im so glad im out of high school.
    what a freakin nightmare that crap was.
    not that life after school is any better.
    but i hated high school.


    it was funny when i was in school and cut.
    i just blamed it on Wood Shop.
    id just say i scraped my arm on a board. or nail...or w/e.


    i never cut my leg though...it never dawned on me i guess.
     
  14. total_edge

    total_edge Guest

    :hug: eih :hug:
     
  15. eih

    eih Well-Known Member

    thx........

    but.... err.... :cry: tonight.. I'm gonna slip up.. I know it.... I wanna cut deep... deeper than ever before.. I wanna see blood gushing .... I see my vein on my leg and I know I'll cut it tonight..... please... how will not????..I know I shouldnt but ....I really really haev a craving for it:eek:hmy:
     
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