Hate me not yourselves

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Prof.Bruttenholm, Sep 11, 2010.

  1. Prof.Bruttenholm

    Prof.Bruttenholm Well-Known Member

    I hate myself more than anyone can know.
    I am a monster.

    So to help all of you let go of your self-loathing, just put all your anger on me, insult me, yell at me, tell me how much you hate me, imagine that everything bad that has happened in your lives is because of me ( it probably is anyway).
  2. Viro

    Viro Well-Known Member

    It saddens me that you feel you deserve this.
  3. Prof.Bruttenholm

    Prof.Bruttenholm Well-Known Member

    Feel, no. I am certain I deserve this.

    Plus, it's much more healthy for everyone else.

    Didnt get that raise/promotion you wanted? My fault , not yours

    Didnt have the courage to ask out that person you like? My fault

    Dont like the way you look in the mirror? My fault

    The root of all your problems, everyones problems, is me.
  4. KittyGirl

    KittyGirl Well-Known Member

    I seriously doubt all of this.
    Even if you were *the* one and only seed of evil in this world; I wouldn't be able to hate you. I don't really know you. All I see when I look at you is a person who hates themselves.
    I don't hate anyone but myself.
    I hate myself. I blame myself for everything that has ever gone wrong in my life, my mom's life, my dad's life - it just seems easier to blame myself than to point my finger at someone else.
  5. Prof.Bruttenholm

    Prof.Bruttenholm Well-Known Member

    Good and Evil are just words.
    What's good for one is bad for another.

    I am simply the root of all human suffering.
    I am the pain, the bile and the agony.
    The darkness, the terror and the horror.

    Hate me, because twenty billion of you could never hate me as I hate myself.
  6. fallingangie

    fallingangie Well-Known Member

    Common! You are certainly not the reason for our sufferings today...we dont even know you. Instead of blaming yourself ..let yourself be loved for once, it will only help you to see the good things about you that you are blind to.
  7. Prof.Bruttenholm

    Prof.Bruttenholm Well-Known Member

    There is no good. I am ugly, scary.
    I am Pariah.

    There is no love for me. I feel no affection.
  8. absolution

    absolution Forum Buddy

    I dont even know you so how could everything that was done to me be your fault?? :unsure: Im not going to yell at you or insult you. But if you need to talk i am here for you :)
  9. Prof.Bruttenholm

    Prof.Bruttenholm Well-Known Member

    You dont know the person who takes away your promotion, the person who backs into your car and drives off, the person who was responsible for less than great care for a loved one in a hospital or a poor diagnosis.
    But they exist and I am they.
    I am every single hated human being in the world.
    I am the darkness, the fear, the mourning.
    I am the dog that bit you when you were five and left that awful scar, I am the doctor who told you the worst news in your life, I am the disease in your mind.
  10. absolution

    absolution Forum Buddy

    I know you're feeling down but not everything that has happened to everyone is your fault. Its not possible.
  11. Prof.Bruttenholm

    Prof.Bruttenholm Well-Known Member

    Anything is possible.
    I am personified nature of human suffering.
    It is possible.

    I am not down, I am beneath that. I hate myself as should everyone else.
    I'm the reason none of you succeed, I am the reason you are shy, dont speak and I am the reason each of you had to go so far as to join this forum.
  12. IAD121212

    IAD121212 Well-Known Member

    I would, but I really can't be bothered sorry.
  13. Ziggy

    Ziggy Antiquitie's Friend

    People hating you is like people loving you. Neither is real.

    You think if people start going "Oh Ziggy we love you so much" :hug: I'm going to think that's anything but bullshit. Hate me if you want, that's bullshit too.
  14. Prof.Bruttenholm

    Prof.Bruttenholm Well-Known Member

    Love isnt real anyhow.

    But at least hating me will give everyone an outlet for their aggression.
  15. Borrowed time*

    Borrowed time* Well-Known Member

    I dont know you so i cant hate you
    I know me, i hate myself
    You cant take what is mine
  16. Prof.Bruttenholm

    Prof.Bruttenholm Well-Known Member

    I can, I am the theif, the stealer of light and hope.
    I am what you should hate.
    Each of you is beautiful, wonderful, kind and givng, I am not.

    I am the pain and the agony, I am the pit, the fire and the darkness.
    I am the rage, the death and the torture.
  17. Borrowed time*

    Borrowed time* Well-Known Member

  18. varek

    varek Well-Known Member

    Hypocrisy thread achieves much.

  19. MiraWolf95

    MiraWolf95 Account Closed

    I do not hate you, I hate myself.
    Always have and always will.
  20. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Stop being such a martyr. It doesn't achieve anything.

    I would say to get help but i am sure you have some excuse as to why it won't work for you because somehow you are different from everyone else.

    The truth is, you are not. You are just another person with mental illness (everything you say in this thread just highlights how completely human you are) As am i. But i made it out the other side. Believe me i have gone on many self pitying, woe is me, i am the worst creature in the world, no one can help me rants. And it's good for a release so it's not all bottled up in side.

    But at the end of the day, it is not a fact. It is a distortion of an ill mind.