Hate me

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by transparent, Sep 12, 2014.

  1. transparent

    transparent Well-Known Member

    I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
    They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
    Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
    Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
    There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
    An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
    And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
    And will you never try to reach me?
    It is I that wanted space

    Hate me today
    Hate me tomorrow
    Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

    Hate me in ways
    Yeah ways hard to swallow
    Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

    I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
    The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
    In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
    While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
    You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
    You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
    So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
    And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

    Hate me today
    Hate me tomorrow
    Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

    Hate me in ways
    Yeah ways hard to swallow
    Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

    And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
    Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
    And like a baby boy I never was a man
    Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
    And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
    Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
    And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

    Hate me today
    Hate me tomorrow
    Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

    Hate me in ways
    Yeah ways hard to swallow
    Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you