I got really mad today, I tired to spend time with my older sister. She brought up the subject of how i want to be a teacher. I told her how i don't want to be a teacher anymore and that I think I may look for another line of work. I haven't gone to school to be a teacher it was just something I was thinking about. Right now I'm just looking for entry level work and may go to college later. I don't know why but she got irradiated with me and ended up saying I'm negative. Which I am negative by nature but so is she. However she says that she is a positive person and I'm bringing her down and that's why she has to move out. I got really angry. I couldn't let it go and I kept taking about. Which I shouldn't have done but she really pissed me off. She always tries to act superior. She ended up saying "your a scared little man who doesn't know what to do with his life". I ended up calling her selfish. And then she proceeds to talk about how I don't look for work. I just had an interview last week! (I ended being turned down) She always makes fun of me and my height, because I'm shorter then everyone. And I'm only 22 of course I'd don't know what to do with my life. Nobody takes into account my progress. I had to deal with a psychotic break for 3 years and knee surgery but made a full recovery on both accounts. I just got diagnosed with low testosterone and vitamin d deficiency - I have literally no energy and feel sick all the time. Yet I make dinner almost every night, and I do all the laundry. My mother and father call me disabled. My dr says I'm not disabled! My sister and I used to be really close but have grown apart. I really am tired of living I don't want to live anymore. I don't think this will ever end. My father has dependency issues and I depend on him for rides because he won't show me how to drive. He tried to teach me but he just gave up after 2 times. I can't say anything because he yells at me and tells me I'm bothering him and pressuring him. When I got out of highshcool I needed surgery on my deformed knee from birth. And during highschool years I was in psychotic state the whole time and doped up on meds. So I haven't had anytime to learn adult skills. And my mother left us, so I only have my father. And he is crazy. I love him but he is unstable. He doesn't want any of us to leave him. My mother has recently tried to help us, but she is unreliable and never keeps her word. One day I had a dr. appointment and she canceled an hr before the appointment I feel trapped. The only thing I can think of is get a job and save up for driving school. Then save up for a car. And then get a better job and move out. But I don't think it will ever happen. I've been unemployed for almost 2 years. I'm getting more discouraged and depressed. Even the fast food place won't hire me. I have a diploma and experience in different jobs. <mod edit- methods>.