today i am really angry and i can't take anymore. i'm sure people always say that and it passes and mine probably will, but at the moment, the pain tolerance is really up. people always have other motives than the one on face value. i'm becoming cynical in the world we live in and if i continue i will dispise it and if that happens then i have first hand experience on why i hate people. we people they can hurt us but they can also nurture us. when all you experience is hurt than you are presented with an option believing this because it feels so true. The repetitive espisode of being hurt continues to re-affirm the notion that this world is uncaring and the people in it. Yet, if we have a group of friends or families who are supportive than the blows of everyone else makes no differences. Your families and friends says that you are ok person and no matter what others say or do, you are still the person they love. when there is no one, we have to look after ourselves in every possible way and some times we fall very short of this.