I can't take it anymore. The jobs I want are too hard for me, and they are really low paying in comparison to other junk jobs. Girls are manipulative hypocrites who find it a turn off when a guy gets a little clingy, but feel they themselves are the exception to the rule. There are a bunch of other superficial unrealistic hidden rules that make these girls seem like nothing but scams in a prolonged game of monopoly. I can't do anything I like. I try swimming, and can only make it to the pool for an hour, two days a week. I'm not getting any better, and in some ways have even gotten worse. I have no time for developing skills like music, art, and physical dexterity, and work and school. Life sucks. I hate it. I hate people and their fake ideals, that they themselves ignore to benefit themselves, and I especially hate the lack of logic behind it all. I really think I would be better off dead.