So about 2 months ago I left home and am now living in another state with my girlfriend and her family. Well i have been starting to feel homesick but i didn't realize how bad until my mom left me a voice mail on my phone and i called her back. Just her voice made me break down and now i cant stop crying. I totally broke down in front of my gf and now she knows im homesick.. I cried the whole time we had together before she had to leave for work and I know i upset her. Its not like I don't like living her because i do. I just really really miss my family.. And its stupid.. Why couldn't i just wait to break down when she left for work? Why did i have to do it in front of her? It seems to be a continuous thing, me hurting her. Everything I do and say comes out wrong. And now she has to go to work upset.. I hate who I am. This goes much deeper than just being homesick. I feel like there is one thread holding my heart together and its about to snap. And I am afraid for what will happen when it finally does.