It's hard learning to lean on others. I been so into not talking much and handling things myself. Been coming on here more often to learn to open up more. I been so frustrated. Every day seems to be getting worse and trying my best not to lose control and do something horrible to myself. I'm so exhausted. My mind has been chaotic. Just too much going on in my head. Just been wanting it all to stop. So exhausted in dealing with how I been. So frustrating.