Today was horrible. I went to a therapy session with a friend and she promised me that she would start talking if I felt uncomfortable. When I started to get scared she just sat there and wouldn't talk. So I had to talk to the therapist about things that I had honestly never ever ever wanted to think about again. I knew that if I started talking about things I wouldn't shut up... the problem is now that my friend won't talk to me, my husband hates me and thinks I'm stupid for going and so would anyone else in my family or immediate surroundings... so now I'm screwed. I have numbed out and I am so sick of myself that I've made a decision... I guess this is my last reach out to someone... just need to hear someone give me a reason not to... :poo: