okay ive never posted here but im sure i have having read the stuff okay basically i was bullied abit at school my mum died of cancer last year after just half a year of finding out if any of that is a contribution and im also 18 and a male and have 0 friends and no social life i just dont want to know about it so heres the stuff i dont know why ive done. . Speak to inanimate objects like i speak to the trolly while pushing it round the supermarket. .I did have a group of friends who were really cool they always said i was mad lol but one day i went in and said i hate you all and i dont care if i never see you again and they were not happy and didnt speak to me after and wehn i got home i realized what id done and just broke down in tears. .back when i was around 10 11 i wrote a note reapeting the words i will die soon over and over again and went to sleep and left it on my side table and my mum found it and she was crying like mad. .ive thought about commiting suicide a few times but just havent got the balls lol. .I usually think my dad or someone has poisend my food i dont know why but i do. Thats basically it im f**** in the head arent i lol.