have i lost control?

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by among the stars, Mar 8, 2009.

  1. among the stars

    among the stars Well-Known Member

    Burning again tonite...so sick of hurting n yet how else am i gonna handle all of this...so much pain...so much sh....i hd so many dreams for my future but they were taken away with mom....im nothing...was nothing...never will be anything...fucking screw the world and me

    Life has betrayed me once again,
    I accept some things will never change.
    I've let your tiny minds magnify my agony,
    and it's left me with a chem'cal dependency for sanity.

    Yes, I am falling... how much longer till I hit the ground?
    I can't tell you why I'm breaking down.
    Do you wonder why I prefer to be alone?
    Have I really lost control?

    I'm coming to an end,
    I've realised what I could have been.
    I can't sleep so I take a breath and hide behind my bravest mask,
    I admit I've lost control.
  2. Vitreledonellidae

    Vitreledonellidae Well-Known Member

    think the sh wont really help you with handling things, only makes it all harder for you, you might not think that now, but believe me when you get rid of it you will. And like i said before, accept some help, you obviously need it and you really deserve it. I know youre not used to it, but this doesnt seem to work either, like you said you lost control, so you need help from someone else, so you can get that control back. I make it sound so easy now, sorry, i know its not..