Have my own problems plus worried about my dad

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by titanic, Dec 24, 2007.

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  1. titanic

    titanic Well-Known Member

    My dad last night tried to hang himself. He jumped of the stairs at home and broke the bannisters and bashed his head as he fell.

    I am depressed too.

    I am alone with my two children tomorrow and feeling tempted to end it xmas day or boxing day. Their dad has them boxing day so I am all alone.
  2. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    You would not want your children to have the memory of your suicide on a holiday or even near one. Actually, I don't think you would want them to have to deal with that reality at all. It will effect them for the rest of their lives. I know the struggle has been long and hard, but don't give up. You have come this far. :hug:
  3. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    :hug: :hug:

    I'm so sorry hun, but please don't "end it". It would bring so much hurt to your children. Carry on being strong, it's not easy but you can do it

    Take care sweetie :hug:
  4. titanic

    titanic Well-Known Member

    Thanx! It's going to be a hard day. I'll be ok though.
    Fingers crossed. Who know's where my mood will take me!?
  5. titanic

    titanic Well-Known Member

    Getting bad again, am drunk and wanting to take an overdose

    My children are going to be with their dad tomorrow so it would be an ideal opportunity.
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  6. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    Heya hun.

    Howa you feeling today?

    Hope you are okay :hug:
  7. Emo_kitty

    Emo_kitty Account Closed

    we really hope that you are safe now

  8. titanic

    titanic Well-Known Member

    I feel good!! :biggrin:

    Last night I went beserk.
    I trashed my kitchen, absolutely lost it, broke all the cups and flung everthing around, dropped to the floor and slit my arms with the glass and howled like a ware wolf for a good half hour.
    I didn't think I was going to survive the moment let alone another day!

    Today, I feel bereaved somehow and I am wearing black. I am still recovering from the emotions I let out last night, I ache all over and am tired. I have been spending the day laying down in bed and cleaning the mess in the kitchen.

    But the strange thing is I have realised that whatever shit happens to me I am able to get through it and survive. Nothing is worth me throwing my life away for, I deserve to live. I'm a survivor, just like many of you are on this forum, surviving emotional pain, bereavement, love, anquish, hate and all of those horrible feelings that only go to show we are human beings with emotions.

    We have a right to be free of that pain.

    Today, I give my whole self over to God, have faith, and trust in Him, God loves me (and all of us) more than any one on this earth can ever imagine.
    I have'nt neen put on this earth for nothing, and I'm going to fight to stay alive with every last inch of my body. Even if that means hanging on by the skin of my teeth.

    Thank you on her for all your support and kind words of encouragement
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