I just have to write this somewhere... I don't know what was happening lately. I was in good mood for almost a month, positive, happy.... But since saturday i feel shitty. I went out on friday, have awesome night out, some weed and alcohol, but nothing much.. and when i woke up on saturday i was in really bad mood. I don't know why, but i was screaming and crying for more than 2 hours... for no reason? 1.Then here is my ex... he broke up with his gf. I don't know, i might want him back? I want to feel loved... i miss him. I was okay for a past month and i didn't missed him at all... but now i cry miself to sleep.. again. I was shure i was over him. But no? wtf.... 2. My first grade in this school year... was very bad. I don't know how or why... . I got 55% ... that really got me down. And i can not concentrate on anything.... why now when the grades are super important for university? 3. When i got home today my family had already eaten. So i sitted down and started to eat some baked veggies, but then i realised there is sea food in it. I started crying really bad... because of sea food? 4. I feel like sleeping... whole day. I don't have energy. 5. My self esteem is fading and i feel stupid like hell. 6. At least cold weather is coming... and the days are already shorter. :moonwalk: 7. what the fuck is going on. i want my normal (like i was the whole september) self back!