Has anyone actually died and was brought back to life? If so did you see yourself going towards Heaven or H*ll? The only thing and I mean the only things from truly keeping my from ending it all is the fear of Hell which is eternal. It use to be family and H*ll, but death happens and at one point in time they will have to deal with it. So what if it's now or later? I know Christ died for our sins and I get so many mixed messages when it comes to suicide. Some say you go straight to H*ll because you have interrupted God's plan. Other say through Christ you will be saved and still have a chance to go to heaven if you believe in him. Which I strongly do. I also think that if anyone wants out why is that a problem? Why can't you think that and still believe in Christ? I hope in no way have I mocked Christ or God be asking the question I do or the things I say. I just want answers. I rarely go to others with question, because everyone starts saying how you don't trust God enough our your faith is not strong enough. I have been told God gives you the desires of your heart, but if the answer is no what are you suppose to do go on forever asking and wishing for things that that will never happen? *sigh* So if you have been there please share. Thanks.