Well this just happened to me. I started bawling out of the sheer frustration and loneliness that I feel. There are so many reasons for this and each of them are so utterly pathetic I just started laughing at my self. I am a person that tends to over-think things. I have come up with a way of life that should have led to my happiness but it has only resulted in anxiety, depression and f**king confusion. I feel that if I ever acquire said happiness I should deserve it. So I treat others, with Buddha's tenacity, as I want to be treated. But at the same time, never have I put others' needs before my own ( Selfish maybe, but I still treat people better then they f**king treat me). Oh and of course I'm honest to a fault and a non-conformist. Now that you know about me I NEED HELP! I am so f**king lonely. I have always had a relatively positive self-image even when I may not be beautiful. I have never had a real boyfriend (or girlfriend) and this is not for lack of trying. I have been rejected by so many people. I don't even have close friends to confide in and laugh away my sorrows. I just HATE MY LIFE! I don't know what to do any more. The more I think and the more I try, the deeper my pain delves. I constantly discuss this with my family but they are clueless as to what to do and are more concerned about themselves - which is painfully understandable. I have also tried professional help but the bulls**t they spew has never done anything except deplete my bank account. While my problems are miniscule to those that many have, I can't help but feel this way. I WANT FRIENDS, I WANT A BOYFRIEND AND WANT SOMEONE TO VALIDATE MY F**KING EXISTENCE! Please tell me what to do.