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Suicide is a bitch. So many people live on the edge and are looking for someone to pull them in the right direction. Yes I do think up different ways to go thru with it. I have a plan and a day already picked. I have struggled with this for fourteen years. I have tried to end it once by O.Ding. Well it's obvious that I didn't make it.
My life has been one of lies and being used because I always put trust in people before I really got to know them. My ex fiance ripped me off for$18,000. We had bought a house together so I felt sure I could trust her. I came into the money and deposited in the account we shared. She turned around and pulled the money out and put it in a new account with just her name.
I heard thru the grapevine that she was burning up alot cash to support her new addiction to cocaine. Oh well that is spilled milk and there is nothing I can do about it. I hope some of this helps you...:chopper:
My life has been one of lies and being used because I always put trust in people before I really got to know them. My ex fiance ripped me off for$18,000. We had bought a house together so I felt sure I could trust her. I came into the money and deposited in the account we shared. She turned around and pulled the money out and put it in a new account with just her name.
I heard thru the grapevine that she was burning up alot cash to support her new addiction to cocaine. Oh well that is spilled milk and there is nothing I can do about it. I hope some of this helps you...:chopper:
yup. but what kept me going past the date i set was the support and kindness from the member's here. i told one or two about 'the date' and they kept me going, via PMs and posts, until i was ready to pick myself up and keep trying again.
thing about a date like that is, you don't have to explain to a single person why you changed your mind. if it's too big a step to get rid of the date, maybe you can defer until another day, and then keep deferring later and later.
thing about a date like that is, you don't have to explain to a single person why you changed your mind. if it's too big a step to get rid of the date, maybe you can defer until another day, and then keep deferring later and later.
In the past I had set a date to end it all, on that day I found myself drunk with all the equipment to do it, then i got scared , scared of how it would hurt my family, and scared of the dying process itself. Afterwards i did feel bad for not doing it, and felt I so stupid and useless that I cant even kill myself. My motivation to die lessened after that, when i see my little niece each day smiling and playing im glad im still here (she is mainly the only reason im still here).
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