Have you ever...

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by puppydog31, Jun 9, 2008.

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  1. puppydog31

    puppydog31 Member

    set a date to kill yourself, and then realize after that it's not what you want, but then feel really bad because it's like you made yourself a promise to "end it all"?
  2. ItThing

    ItThing Well-Known Member

    Not me but I think I get what you're saying. However, many people do not know what they want, and it's completely okay to change your mind. The most important is what makes you happy in the end, so don't feel guilty as long as you believe your current choice will make you happier.
  3. mittens

    mittens Active Member

    many times, next one coming up in 2 months

    (will be my one year anniversary of chronic pain, and the inability to do anything)

    wish me luck
  4. beauutyy

    beauutyy Well-Known Member

    i have. but i have never gone through with it. and i havent done that in such a long time.

    but i know what you mean.
  5. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Suicide is a bitch. So many people live on the edge and are looking for someone to pull them in the right direction. Yes I do think up different ways to go thru with it. I have a plan and a day already picked. I have struggled with this for fourteen years. I have tried to end it once by O.Ding. Well it's obvious that I didn't make it.
    My life has been one of lies and being used because I always put trust in people before I really got to know them. My ex fiance ripped me off for$18,000. We had bought a house together so I felt sure I could trust her. I came into the money and deposited in the account we shared. She turned around and pulled the money out and put it in a new account with just her name.
    I heard thru the grapevine that she was burning up alot cash to support her new addiction to cocaine. Oh well that is spilled milk and there is nothing I can do about it. I hope some of this helps you...:chopper:
  6. dazzle11215

    dazzle11215 Staff Alumni

    yup. but what kept me going past the date i set was the support and kindness from the member's here. i told one or two about 'the date' and they kept me going, via PMs and posts, until i was ready to pick myself up and keep trying again.

    thing about a date like that is, you don't have to explain to a single person why you changed your mind. if it's too big a step to get rid of the date, maybe you can defer until another day, and then keep deferring later and later.
  7. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    In the past I had set a date to end it all, on that day I found myself drunk with all the equipment to do it, then i got scared , scared of how it would hurt my family, and scared of the dying process itself. Afterwards i did feel bad for not doing it, and felt I so stupid and useless that I cant even kill myself. My motivation to die lessened after that, when i see my little niece each day smiling and playing im glad im still here (she is mainly the only reason im still here).
  8. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hesitation is your body chousing self preservation. You have second thoughts and that is a good thing. Most people don't really want to die, They just want a better life.
    I hope this makes some sence to you. If you need to talk to someone PM me. Stay strong and stay safe...:chopper:
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