Have you ever thought about if you actually decided to do it and you got right down to the moment? I was thinking about it today and I think the gravity of the moment would just be crushing and I don't think I could do it. I've always known I was a coward in some ways but I never really thought I'd be a coward if such a "moment of truth" arose. But when I go through the scenario in my mind and I get to that point, I know all I'd be thinking about would be reasons why I shouldn't. I do think I'd be scared. More than I've ever really thought.