I can't imagine feeling this way for the rest of my natural life. I've been going through it for over 15 years and it only gets worse as I age. I have nothing to lose by trying so I'm giving therapy and medication one last shot. But I still don't know how much longer I can deal with it. I know they're months away but I don't want to spend another year of holidays in this state. I'm thinking of giving myself through September for things to improve before I commit to a plan. I'm barely functioning now; I'm missing a lot of work and may have to drop out of school in the fall. If things continue along this path there will be nothing left by then anyway.