have you ever lost a lover, a parent or a friend? have you ever watched them drifting until it was their end? have you ever wished to be the one in those arms and dying? have you longed to lay there bleeding whilst your friend is sat there crying? have you ever wished to let them suffer until it was too much? have them be so sad they look for ways to hurt themselves and such..? have you ever thought about what it could mean to those around you? have you ever even considered what it would be like for those who found you? have you ever begun to think about what life could really hold? if you lived by your own rules instead of doing what you're told... if you don't like the life you're living, change it. it IS possible.