Feeling very depressed and lonely. Need the courage to go ahead and do this thing and quit whining about it. I'm not sure why I never found anyone who could love me. I just have to accept the fact I am unlovable. Facebook thing really got me down. Prayed about things for years no relief. What's wrong with me? My wife and I don't talk. If we talk we fight. We haven't slept in the same room for 5 years. The only reason we got married in the first place was because we were afraid of being lonely. Now after 30 years our lives are basically over. I wish I would never have been born. Constantly think about suicide. I'm just a coward. Always have been . . . always will be. Medicines don't help they just have side effects. Can't fix a broken heart. For Mary Lynn . You were the love of my life. Never stopped loving you over all these years. May God bless you. I have to try and get some sleep now. Have to go to work later.