On March 10th, I ended up in the hospital after I got stupid and told someone on private crisis chat I was thinking of suicide. I was in the hospital for a month. It wasn't a terrible experience like in the past, but it wasn't "super great" either. When I was released, I had the option to go to a recovery house for dealing with alcohol. Long story short, the place was not good, but in a strange turn, I ended up in another one which I'm curently at now. It definelty has some negatives to it, but it has been mostly helpful so far. I haven't had a drink in over a month nearly two months really. And I'm able to get out more than before. But there are so many things I'm still unsure about....especially how I feel about dealing with the mental health system. Since the hospital, they don't seem to give a shit one way or another. I sort of do have a therapist I talk to, but I have to wait till funds are in order. I'm kind of tired right now, but there is more to this. Sorry if this comes off as vague.