so i'm having a rough night, i was listening to loveline.com and they were talking about past relationships and someone who was in a relationship with a guy who said he loved her after dating a month and a half and she couldnt say it back and felt bad about it and he seemed mad that she couldnt say it back. well they said he was a controlling person and that got me thinking about my last relationship (4 years ago) and i was that guy. well i have a tendency to be really hard on myself and that leads to thoughts of suicide. i'm going through therapy and they told me to talk to people on this site or call the crisis line so here i am. just trying to stop from going over the "red line" i dont think i was controlling but just really self judgemental and needed to be reassured or something like that....i dont know, my therapyst told me that i am very self judgemental and judgemental of others because of it. i just dont want to dwell on this thought to the point i do something stupid like i have in the past.