I know they say suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem but my problem will never go away. 5 years ago I killed my baby out of insecurities and fear. I'd do anything to die in a way that looks like an accident. A relative killed himself 4 years ago and I can't put everyone thru that grief. But an untimely accident would be wonderful. I want to be with my only child and free from pain. I contribute nothing in life. I've no friends, no one likes me. The 2 ppl I hang out with are openly pro life, and that's fine... they should be. But its really hard being with them when they rip on ppl like me. They'll never know or understand... I can't take life much longer, I really can't.