I'm new so forgive me if I'm doing something wrong. I am usually able to cope pretty well with my constant social anxiety and depression, but today is going poorly. I am struggling with school work (I am behind because I spent about 7 months in treatment last year), so I have to do these packets. I'm slipping back into the thoughts that I am worthless and can't do anything right; that life is too hard and isn't worth it. This is a problem, because I can never seem to find a counter-argument to use against the thoughts, so I'm just stuck in a crap tornado. And then my cat ran away, so I had to spend the whole day looking for him instead of doing work. I haven't cried in a long time, but there is just so much STUFF going on that I can't seem to find my usual footing. So my first instinct when that happens is to fantasize about suicide. I figured that I should call a hotline, but that never seems to help, you know? So I ended up finding this place. I hope it can be somewhat helpful.